I know what you are going through; only for me it is with my boyfriend and not my husband. To give a little background on my situation: I dated a guy for four years a while ago and over half of our relationship he had cheated on me. Of course I didn't know this at the time, but when I found out it was absolute devastation. After we broke up, I went through a long period of time (5 years worth) of going out with different guys, and MANY times being the "other woman" in a number of relationships. By the grace of God I met my current boyfriend who can only be described as Heaven sent. He is not only an unbelievable boyfriend, but he is an outstanding human being.

The only problem is I have this insane jealousy issue that I can not overcome, and it seems like the longer we are together, the more I realize how Blessed I am to have him in my life, the more I'm afraid to lose him. If he even talks to other girls, I have to watch his face to see if it lights up the same way it does when he talks to me. When he makes a comment about if a girl on TV is attractive, I am infuriated. I do a pretty good job at hiding these reactions from him, however he does know that I struggle with jealousy. The thing is, I truly trust that he would never cheat on me, that's not the issue, my issue is that I'm afraid he will fall for someone else, someone who is a better person than I am.

He really takes his faith very seriously, in fact we are exercising chastity until we get married, which is something I've never done in a relationship. We volunteer at a high school youth group together and I find myself extremely jealous of those girls. He loves sharing his faith with others and he gets really excited if people are interested in the faith. He treats boys and girls, men and women, all equally, and yet I can't stand when he's friendly to other girls.

The ironic thing is, my ex who did cheat on me all the time was never friendly towards other girls, at least not around me...

Ahh I'm really just trying to vent right now, I know you wrote this a while ago and I know there is no advice in my post, but I was kind of hoping someone else would be able to add on.