I am a vegetarian (not a vegan although some people are adamant that I am because I'm strict with certain things). I'm used to people taking the piss out of me for it, the life of a vego is not always an easy one, but tonight I really just wasn't in the mood for it. He jokes about me not eating enough and not eating properly, I said enough with the food already, I got paid today, I've eaten, I've had blood tests done in the past to prove to others who were hassling me that I was tired from not eating meat and I proved them all wrong because my blood test was completely normal. He got the message after that.
He is the kind of person who makes jokes and is usually funny, but sometimes they need to just stop. I don't think he fully understands. He knows I hate alcohol and marijuana and why, but he keeps joking that I need a drink (he doesn't do weed though). He has apologised for joking about it, but he doesn't understand the concept of triggers, and it's not something I feel comfortable explaining.
Because I'm also really hypervigilant I was really edgy tonight (God I hate hypervigilance), and he said that this is the reason I shouldn't live alone. I made it clear I don't want to, nor can I, live with anyone. Again he didn't quite understand and tried to tell me that not everyone is going to do something.
I guess I'm just in a bad mood today, I found out something from my mummy today that someone in the family had said about me and it bugged me, as soon as I woke up and read her message. Whenever I'm frustrated about something I get really touchy about things so that's probably why he was bugging me so much...
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