Went to see the Therapist today, she said that it sounds like I'm not using the skills we talked about in therapy, and she's right because I can't really remember the skills we talked about. But she has suggested Supportive Therapy and is going to talk to someone about me joining that group.

She's told me to read all the self-help books I've been given and try some of the stuff in them. She said that nothing is going to change unless I'm goinig to change me. And that is something I'm going to have to want. My problem is that I try to change everything all at once and freak when it falls apart becasue I'm doing too much.

I am getting better at my time management and have found that a schedule is helpful to both me and my son, though it is taking time to get used to. (There is less resistance on my son's part when it comes to bed time. Woohoo!!)

She also said that I need to talk to my drug doctor next time something like that happens.

So basicly, stop feeling sorry for myself. Try some of the stuff we've talked about until I find something that works. And move on!!! Sounds like a long road to me.