So punk rock I know the feeling. I went though a phase of obsessing over a singer from a band(so cliché yes I know -_-) . He was jus everything I ever wanted to be. He too suffered from depression so I always thought hey if he can get through it so can I. But it's hard sometimes because you have to realize that you cannot live the same life and altthough you can look up to them youcant be them.
I'm not obessed with this person anymore but sometimes when I feel really down I go back and listen to the music and just kind of indulge in him lol it's comforting (: