man, I totally hear you because I get exactly the same. To the point where somebodies voice makes me want to punch a wall.... serioulsy, I at times, feel exactly the same way and man do I know how hard it is. I hear you loud and clear brother.

I too get fed up with all the STUPID games and BS that goes on.. I get angry and blame ppl for the way I feel. "If only pple were not such BS game players I would be ok and wouldnt feel so paranoid or hateful" BUT dude..... this is not the case.. IT IS apart of our illness... these feelings... against ppl.... its really a problem within us. Hard to see, I sooooo so so so know but when you are there, in that dark hateful place, its so easy to look at others, hate them, blame them...... but its not them. We cant control ppl..... we can only (try) to control ourselves. Do not get frustrated because you cant change ppl..... we can only change ourselves.

I REALLY HEAR YOU. I get that feeling.... all too often and its souls destroying, relationship destroying.... LIFE destroying. DArk dark dark place to be man and I know it oh so well.

hang tough my friend, remember, these feelings.... are apart of our illness (well it is for me anyway)

How do I cope with it?

Hmmmm not too well alot of the time.... BUT what helps.... is realising the ppl I am hating, have fear, self doubt and insecurites just like me. It helps me to emphasies rather than hate. I'm not saying to pity everyonr around you but just not too feel so threatened by them.... well thats what happens to me. I feel threatened by the way (I think) they judge me and seem so perfect but they are not..... they are human just like you and I but have better coping mechanisms than you, I and others with BP and other mental illnesses.

Hang in there bruv, you are not alone, we hear and know what you are saying *hugs*