im so sick of literally everything.. no matter what kind of cycle i am in i am ALWAYS angry, so angry. i hate always wanting to attack someone, or the having the feeling of murdering the person nearest me. im not safe to be around people, for my sake and their own, bc its driving me nuts, and i have to live with it everyday. its getting harder and harder each day to deal with, and i for one really dont want to hold it in anymore.. maybe i should just lash out when i feel like it, will that bring me some dam peace and quiet in my body and mind? i hate being around people, i hate hearing or seeing them, i hate the daily BS that i have to deal with and people just pile up and up on me, like its my problem and not theirs. send me to a mental hospital, who the hell cares anymore. i would finally get that peace that i need so very much. the peace in my mind that i dont have to be paranoid of the people around me, that they arent staring at me or talking about me, or plotting against me, i dont care what. take me there, put me in a room, im going to murder the next person i see regardless, i have way too much anger than i should, and im not dealing with it anymore... i have had to for far too long.

if you have felt this, or do feel like this, some advice or support would be nice.