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Apr 13, 2010, 08:33 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2008
Location: Canada
Posts: 212
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okay heres the deal. this is my first boyfriend after the whole rape happened. We've been dating for about idk 3 days now. and were already having problems. The truth is, im scared. I really am, but in another way im not the least bit. But kay, ever since the rape, all i can think about is sex, im serious. At times it scares me. I know my T told me it's just natural. But sometimes i think about the guy that raped me, she sad that means the sexual assault is still in me, I don't understand that part. At all. But then after a while i started like really really wanting sex really badly, that i would like talk to guys and telling them i will have sex with them. I'd hate to hurt this guy because i really do love him. But the assault just messed me up, thinking that guys just want to skip the talk and hop right in bed. I don't know how to fix that. I mean i love this guy, he makes me feel happy, loves me for who i am (for once in my life), he's listens to me, all that. I love him so much, I really hate to hurt him, because I would be the one hurting him and he doesn't need that.
What do i do?! 
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