ECHOES, you really think I can tell or email her that her looks upset me????? I was blushing during my session when she tried to get me to tell her what was bothering me about emails vs seeing her. I know Ts are used to hearing everything, but when it's about THEM? I don't know if it's transference but skinny is definitely not mother-like to me. I don't think of her as a mother figure at all, though.

You're right about my imagination. I have always had fantasies of sessions but the reality hits me right away. My email exchange with Kt was the closest to fantasy/reality meeting I've ever had. I think it was cognitive dissonance (think that's the phrase I mean) to see her.