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Originally Posted by feary
thank you valfor. I feel awful for you that you never get to see your kids at all. It must be so tough. How do you stay balanced?
I can't bear to be around my kids bc I am so sad and anxious all the time so I avoid them
I am just too devastated
there is no way I could have a normal life bc aging deeply depresses me and dying terrifies me and knowing I cannot avoid these things worries me
What makes it worse is expecting it to happen any day now
I wish I could just stop thinking about it
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(((feary))) it has been a lo-----ng road for me and I understand when you say you don't even want to see your kids..it's to painful I know I couldn't or wouldn't even think of mine..nobody could even talk about them...for years ...I literally cried for 5 years every day it was so painful.
I even denied I had kids when people asked me if I did..it was a break down every time, didn't want to go there I was afraid of what would happen to me.
All I can say is time and prayer made a difference for me.....and than I realized this was going to hurt me but not until I had a mental breakdown first it scared me back to reality.......you are grieving and you are going thru the cycles of grieving...one day it will be better I promise you just have to believe ,and it's ok to go and have that hysterical cry your hurting...take one step at a time (((((feary))))
peace and strength
