This doesn't sound strange at all. I think your alters are the ones holding the pain and anger of your abuse and that is why you feel violated. Your alters are also feeling neglected and emotional abused, since someone is saying that they don't even exist. You definitely do need to switch Ts. Your T should be understanding. Maybe this T just doesn't know enough about DID. She obviously can't help you if she can't acknowledge one of your "disorders", or doesn't have enough knowledge about it. Idk if you should just cut it all off before you get a new T. I have many times just stopped seeing a T, because I didn't think he/she was helping me, or I wanted to stop and not open up about my abuse. That may also be why you want to stop. Ask yourself some questions. Is it really the T you don't trust, or is it just that you are afraid to tell your story and you're just getting angry at your T, focusing on all the things she hasn't helped you with to make you "hate" her, to push yourself even more away from her, so that you DON'T even have to tell your story? If the first is the case, you shouldn't be seeing your current T (you HAVE to take that risk to trust them in order to go anywhere in therapy) and you should not feel in anyway obligated or forced to tell your story. A good T will know when you need more time. Obviously, she's been very patient since it's been a year and you haven't discussed it. If the second is the case, just relax, your T will let you take you time and you should stay the next two months with her. But definitely don't tell your your whole story if you're leaving, because then she won't be able to help you learn how to cope with bring up those memories and how to work through them so that you can recover. Another question you need to ask yourself is can you make it on your own while looking for a new T? It's not the best idea to just go T-less. I think you are getting upset, because you have started to think about telling her about the abuse. If she is a good T, other than the fact that she doesn't think you have DID, then why not try to focus on other issues, besides your DID and the abuse for the two months while you are waiting? Don't make a rash decision while you're mad. Calm down, relax, take a breath, think about if your leaving your T is the best option for you. If she really is that bad and is making you worse, what else can you do while you wait, if you do decide to stop seeing her to keep yourself from breaking down? Why don't you try making a list of pros and cons about your T and if there are more cons than pros, make your decision then.