"I probably won't have those intense feelings for her now. I will be disappointed when I see her."

Hi Rainbow - I'm new here, but thought I'd weigh in on your post. Mostly, I wonder about how your expectations for your therapist are shaping or influencing your experiences with her. What you wrote above seems pertinent - if you expect to be disappointed when you see her next, you likely will be. What would it be like to acknowledge your expectations and/or share them with your therapist while also trying consciously to set them aside and experience her for who she is?