Every aspect of my life feels out of control. Mostly my mood swings....

Today I went and saw my SW and talked to her and she asked me to see my family doctor for a refferal to a child psychologist and I was fine with that and whe I left I was satified on how our meeting went. After school I went to my doctors appointment and I was extremely hyper; just giggling away and laughing. The doctor walks in, starts to talk to my mom and he starts talking too much to my mom about my O.D. and I get pissed like a ****ing time bomb I just blew it.

From being hyper, to instantanious pissed and I start yelling at my doctor. Im so pissed I tell my family doctor to **** off.

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
I feel so out of control with my moods its scary and its seriously terrifying me. Now the doctor thinks I am crazy and on drugs in a litteral sense.

Holy **** WTF CAN I DO. Im not apologizing for my crazy *** mood swings that I cant controll. **** Im terrified of talking to anyone because Im scared i'll just blow up.