Hugs to ya'll too and thanks for them.

I want to find happiness. It just feels so far away. A place of peace within.

I see a pdoc and a counsler. I try hard. I get confused and don't know how to talk. I lose myself in thoughts. They start to run over each other.

The storm honestly took my life away. I was homeless for many many months. Lived in 4 different places in that time. Where we found a place to stay didnt last. It was just temporary. Then i moved into the tin can in front of my house and lost it from there. Things started hitting me left and right. I dont' want to go back there.

I got an increase in meds. But i feel low. I'd rather get off the meds and see what life would be again without them. I would self medicate myself. I can handle that. But its not the path i want anymore. So how will i make it?

Want life? Sometimes i dont'. But it would hurt to many. I can't go there. I wish the rocks i'm trying to climb werent' so slippery. I want to see the light.