Thank you so much for your post. I was hoping that someone would post, but feared they would not. I think that the journal is a great idea. I was thinking of starting one. You know it's hard for me to get started with one, but I will because It is difficult for me to remember from Friday to Friday all the things in between that happened and that could be important. I had a dream last night that I woke up from because I was about to get hurt. Funny how it seems I always wake up before anything really happens. I think the dream was a warning to me about something or it was trying to tell me something about myself because in the dream I put myself in the situation that caused the 2 people to want to hurt me. I also ramble in therapy and end up talking about things that don't make sense to me and I wonder how I got there and I can't remember what point I was trying to make or the question I was trying to answer and I feel flustered and ashamed. I even just now noticed that my sentences don't seem to connect or really flow into the next one. I'm sorry for that. I really just want to thank you for taking the time and effort to write such a long and useful response to my post. Attekus