((((((Cutbuddie))))))

What you are going through isn't abnormal in any means, I struggle with a few similar issues (I am a childhood sexual abuse surivor) I have a fear of men, and fear that if they are to have me in a sexual manner they will abandon me afterwords

Have you told him about the assualt? It may help him understand what is going on, and why there are issues arising in the relationship. It's best in a realtionship to be open and honest, espically on manners like this, communication is key

Please be gentle with yourself, You deserve a kind loving relationship, if someone truly loves you they dont' just want to hop into bed with you, they want to talk and spend time with you, and will be there through the bad and good. You are a good person and more than just sex.

Are you talking with your T about this? Maybe you could print this out and show it to her, I know it was very helpful to talk to my T about my relationship issues and how they linked to my childhood abuse.

Sending best wishes your way, feel free to pm anytime
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