sw628: I don't want to bore everyone with my "history" again, LOL so I'll be brief. I'm not sure if you know this already. I've said that therapy is erotic; I get some kind of high from it. The excitement makes me obsess about my T, and I did that about BT, my former T. I like the intensity of my fantasies about my T. It's not exactly sexual. I don't know what it is.

I want to stop those kinds of feelings but yet I crave them. That's it in a nutshell. I don't feel that for Kt yet. Maybe I won't. So I'm disappointed, though it's healthier that way. I want to "get this stuff resolved" because it's so painful, but at the same time I want to feel that "high" from therapy again.