Thanks all for you kind thoughts. I am only in level 8-9 tonight physical therapy did some help, and he adjusted my TENS to burst and moved the electrodes to better spots (which I can't reach on my own.) That'll do for the evening.

Yes, eskie, my psychologist is a pain specialist, and my MD is supposed to be prescribing med accordingly, but she has gone holistic and doesn't believe anyone needs narcotics for pain now. sheesh. THAT'S what narcotics ARE for! I agree, and so does my physical therapist, and my psychologist.... that to even out the levels consistently constant manageable levels is best... but MD continues to cut back on the demerol... so that when I'm not in much pain, I tend to limit what I take to put into a "cache" for times like these when I need MORE to cover the pain... my cache is dwindling quickly... but my psychologist helps me to not think about it, as FEAR of future pain can wipe me out in nothing flat. (I'm sure you understand that, too.)

The only thing the pain center does is take you off all meds and therapy to evaluate your level of pain and ability (also thus putting you into a flare), then they put you on what med level you need, add physical therapy, a home program, and a pain management psychologist. I have all of that already. (And my psychologist TRAINED the clinic's psychologist... so go figure.)

The storm is near.. tonight, tomorrow? I have no idea if I have any therapy tomorrow yet... The "county system" called but didn't even leave a message. It seems I don't fit into their transportation time slots on these storms... they are so rigid. I can't go to a shelter with this pain anyway, and doing so would only make ME worse! I'm resigned to going through it alone with dog I guess... can't even get into closet on this one.

Thanks again for being here for me (sorry if I tiffed anyone off.. I have very little patience with this pain sometimes.)