((((((((Deli))))))))

I am so glad that you had such a productive session with Austin-T. I'm sorry that you don't remember what happened at the end of session. I have that happen too. Sometimes I lose entire sessions. Not as much any more, but it used to happen all the time. It was scary to let T know that it was happening. But my T was totally cool about it. I'm sure Austin T will be also. It is a protective mechanism. Something was too much. It might have been the topic, or it might have been that you had already talked about so much hard stuff during the session that something a little hard (that you would have been fine with in another lighter session) just was too hard right then.

It sounds like you are feeling more connected with Austin-T. I hope that is the case. I'm glad that he clarified what he meant about you being distant. I know that when I am in a lot of pain I close down and distance myself from everyone to keep from getting hurt more.

I am so proud of you for working so hard with Austin-T.