Just an update to this, my T called me a couple of nights ago and said that she didn't know what I had in mind for meeting twice a week, and that doing so would be "unusual". I know from my experience here on PC that that's not the case, so I'm kind of

She did mention doing 90 min trauma sessions instead of 60 min ones, which I guess would help but my thought about meeting twice a week was to help me be able to process what comes up in the hours and days after we do a heavy trauma session.

So, I'm feeling kind of triggered in my usual abandonment/rejection way. I'm wondering if you guys can help me maybe think of how to explain to my T why I think twice weekly sessions is a good idea? I feel like maybe I just haven't explained it to her well enough. But mostly I feel like she just doesn't want to see me that often.