(I was dumped by a wave.... I'm not washed out to sea and I am on my way back to shore...)

Belle your quote above ..I have said sometimesx that IO felt abandoned at sea with no one or anything at sight slowly swimming hopefully to land and not wanting to drown before getting there ...of course my journey would be a bit easier and shorter if someone through me a lifeline so I could rest every now and then along the way and the most helpful if someone came along in a boat and gave me a lift ...none has yet happened so I continue to swim this long journey knowing land is there ,still haven't drown although at times have wanted to stop swimming what seems endless waters more than not..I guess deep down somewhere in me even after all this time ...I must know it is there the shoreline waiting for me to finally lay my head down and rest and say I finally made it .....

As you love swimming I do also to both of us making it to the sunny shoreline (emotinal one)I believe you may make it there first my journy seems a bit tougher ...I will eventually have a whole dilema someday of a divorce as much as I of course had wanted that fairy tale ending the mermaid joing the King of the Sea in my heart of hearts I am sure it will never be..he will keep meeting for our neutral type conversation breakfasts and leave me with a hug and kiss and confuse me ...since in the past(year ago)he wouldn't even hug me in fear of leading me to think anything?

And my emotions are at a fragile point because my finances and home are now in total jeapordy too to know ones knowledge ..I want to run away and live in a cave