Since this whole abusive thing "ended"...the court thing I mean...I think I have been punishing myself...I don't know why...I feel like whatever it was is stopping - that thing that made me feel guilty and less than a person.

My therapist said I need to figure this out. He said to me, jackie, you are a bright girl with a great career ahead of you - why do you want to stop participating in life?

Anyone else here from an abusive relationship lend some insight? Why would I punish myself? By giving up my apartment, leaving school, going "crazy"...he doesn't think there is anything seriously wrong with me and that I sort of induced my own problems....yes, I have PTSD, but I made it worse for some reason by allowing it to take over everything

...and I am anxious.

What do you think? I did get scared but I was hanging on and I sort of just gave out there in Feb. when I left school. Can't get back on the wagon, so to speak.

But why am I punishing myself?