feary I know it seems like you will never get better, but I believe you will. We all will, with the right amount of determination and effort on our part as well as the people supporting us. Maybe it's too hard to make progress now, but there will be a time when enough is enough and you will start to take steps to recovery.
PLeased to hear you've been put on medication, hopefully that will help you to calm down. Let us know how you're feeling. x