((((( AtreyuFreak )))) All I can do is suggest that you look inside for your truth. I totally denied my own DID reality for YEARS after my first T said I was a multiple. I could not face the facts. In my case, it was from severe trauma. But that is just ME. All I know is that the only thing that helped me to find peace about it was for me to accept my own personal truth about DID.

Stay grounded and focus on just being in the NOW. Focus on self-care.
BIG safe hugs for you!!!