Thanks everyone. The session was full on but good. My T's main worry is that i am putting the blame back on myself again..

Kacey we will find the shore line and it will be a sweet time when it happens.

I am doing okay today. Still teary and weird but better than I have been. I didn't bounce away from my appt. but came away realising that I have more work to do to be back to how I want to be.

I can't take the blame and I can't make everyone happy... but it would be easier to accept if i had done something wrong. I gave me heart and soul to the relationship only to have it taken away. It still hurts. One good thing is that when I am hurting like this I don't want to have communication with Mark... so have to look at the as a positive way to get back on track.

Byz - I love 'Valley of the horses' and 'Clan of the cave bear' - Kacey they are books written by Jean M Auel (I think that's the spelling).. Byz is that what you were refering to??
There is another I think is called 'the mammoth hunters' or something similar...

If that wasn't what you were refering to Byz you have lost me as well LOL