VL I do not know where you live, but here are some links that can help you do this "on your own" as you put it (with help!)

http://www.bethany.org/A55798/bethan...1?OpenDocument

www.pregnancycenters.org

there are more... and they offer insurance options, payment help, legal assistance etc.. INFORMATION is what you need right now... and it's available. I admire you for wishing to continue this life, even though it will be more difficult for you NOW, it's a good decision for life, imo. The salvation army also has resources for you to contact. God's love is important right now... regardless of what you think, or how you feel. TC

As for the relationship, leave it alone. The others here have told you truth. What you need to do is carve out a nice life for you and children and become a person within/by your own self! You are worth being a whole person... you can do this.