Possibly because you realized how vulnerable and helpless a baby is when you had one of your own. You recognized that anyone could do whatever they want with such as he, who would ever know?
That's how the predators see their prey. It often begins very early on. I was lucky-
my mom may have been a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, but she knew there was something up with the way my father kept wanting to take naps with me right after I'd already taken a nap, and I'd start screaming every time he picked me up.

She also saw how he treated my brothers--belittling them and making them feel worthless and small--he was cruel to them...they were made to feel they were not a part of the family--I was the princess--they hate me to this day, and blame the divorce on me to this day.
Nope--she wasn't all that nuts-she divorced him--Thank you God!

I've done alot of EMDR and hypnosis in therapy--I do not suggest it for you or anyone--sometimes it's best to not know what you don't know...................

Take Care of You AShadow721!!!!! (((((HUGS)))))theo