You wrote this the day before you wrote the reply to "I still see him every day"; are you aware of that?
You already know. It's okay, are you in therapy now? Do you have contact with him now? Trust yourself, believe yourself, you and your feelings are valuable. You are worthy of being believed, loved, and getting the care you need--you can pm me if you like-----(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) theo