Can someone tell me why I don't feel anything at all? Or how to make myself feel something? I laughed today, which was good, but other than that, nothing.

I am not comfortable ever, anywhere. I feel really out of it and it's been this way since my infamous court date in January. I thought maybe it was my parents' house and the fact that I cant get used to it.

But I didn't mind it before. I am in some kind of zone. Like I don't watch TV really or read. I sort of just exist.

My memory is screwey which is why I may say things twice (sorry guys).

I don't know what to do. I tried to function in May and that didn't work. I ended up leaving school. Not like me. I am a good student.

Couldn't leave the house to do much. Felt weird. I always feel weird. Like a ghost or something. Like I am not all here. Like my identity is gone. Like I am disappearing.

I can't be alone. I freak out. I need my family around but they get on my nerves too. It's hard. They see I can't do much and it makes me feel embarrased.

Can anyone relate to this?