I did the same the other day with my diary from 2 years ago (when I started with this t), and found the same as you. nothing has changed! I could have written it all last week. I told T, and said that I'm worried I'm going to be one of those people that never changes. He said this is a possibility with me

Its frustrating and make me feel hopeless sometimes, but at the same time if I dont know where I would be now if I didnt have T or therapy. Things would definitiely have got worse. So maybe T has helped me stabilise in my craziness, and maybe I need to trust and beleive that T will help me get "there". Where ever that is.