Traction, how did I miss this thread? Anyway, I totally feel ya! (Great responses from others on here too...)

This happens to me constantly with my T. I think he's a frickin' liar. Whereas your T is just forgetful, maybe, and/or a victim of his habit of letting things slip out and then feeling bad about it, so he has to deny them in order to live with himself. So why not just say that? But Ts rarely explain or apologize. Never complain, never explain -- I saw that on a pillow once.

Therapy is NOT a relationship of equality, I've learned. They can get away with that crap and nobody's going to call them on it, except us. And we're pretty much powerless. We can complain, argue, cry, throw their fake-exotic statuettes out the window, and we can always leave. But they can stonewall us until the cows come home.

I think Ts are not above trying to maintain a sort of invincible aura.

My T also rarely admits things he has said that have troubled me. It's as if admitting he made a mistake would damage him irreparably in my eyes, and he has a need to cling to this image of infallibility.

On the one hand he's constantly telling me, "You think I'm perfect, but I'm not perfect." And yet he attempts to maintain an aura of cobbled-together integrity by denying stuff when I call him on it ALL THE FRICKIN' TIME. Infuriating!

I've asked him if I could tape our sessions, and he doesn't want me to. I'm still not sure why he won't. It would be so valuable for me. Unethical to do it secretly, but I have a little hand-held recorder (rubs palms gleefully)...