You are not growling alone. 90% of the abuse that I am now enduring is from my unwillingness to let go. We are greatfull that he is now dead. The bit we read his abutary and it said that we had loving memiors of him. NOT! We dance a jig. and threwed one heck of a party. WE recently found out that our middle sister passed away to. To be honest we were sad for that in truth she was just as much of a victim as we were. But WE still watch and wait for the others to cross over with each one we feel more free from them. It is sad but true. The fact that my foster family gave us a chance at a some what normal life We will be always greatfull. We even understand why she choices to lay low. but the simple truth we probally would not have been able to survive the abuse of the past couple of years if she had not taught us to find value in the fact that our son may not have been able to exscape the blake gossip of what we did to keep him from our bio-family but he did not have to endure the cronic physcal abuse that he would have had he went to our bio family. We can not make our family see the truth we can only heal our selves so please remember this one fact that our Nana tought us. The best revenge is to live well and happy. And to walk in truth. People can say what every they want to about you but when you walk in truth. It helps you walk streight and tall. You will have the inner strenght of a season warrior. Just think you are Marine trained without the boot camp or senior officer shoutting down you througt. Had both like boot camp better. Stand tall Kasva Stand Tall and remember that that by choicing to heal you are stonger then they are.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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