That so true. I for me the narcissist is like a shiny new thing and I'm blinded by the flash. I hear that voice but I don't want to listen because I don't want to believe it I guess. I think I judge myself by how that person sees me. If they think I'm great then I must be okay. Another thing is that I'm never quite sure how to react. I tend to hold things in and by the time I get mad enough to say something it's too much emotion

I double-checked and found the post. Of course, the quote is only a small portion of what you said but that part really spoke to me. http://forums.psychcentral.com/showp...5&postcount=14