I've lost the numbers, but they're in the phone book--they listen tolong stories, and they were very patient with me, giving me other resources , other numbers to call
all were helpful to get me on my feet. My ex never helped me at all with alimony, or payments on the house throughout the divorce--I had to do it all, so I am very familiar with social services, when you need em, you get em, and you are intelligent, you can go back to school--I did--and held a job down at night and got my daughter through college too--I amazed myself-I thought I was worthless and could do nothing by myself---I was stronger than i thought.

You too, you will amazze yourself! What you will do to survive- what you will do for your son!!!To put the past behind you while he is still young--unfortunately for me
my children were watching the whole thing for 12 and 13 years when i finally stopped it--now they blame me for it all. I was just so afraid they'd be poor as I was as a child, and I thought (stupid) that was the way fathers were (not having grown up with one).

Those Hotlines lead to some relly serious help--I'd try one, you are in a position to go underground--I was not..my spouse had my son. (((((HUGS))))chin UP! theo