Ugh I feel awful!!! Absolutely sick and awful! T should have told me to wait to drive home. I was all cotton-eared and dissoc from talking about ick ick ick!!! I don't even feel that relief that comes from telling sometimes. Being heard and understood normally makes it bearable to tell...at least somewhat. But all I feel is absolute revulsion. Ewwww!!! I don't know how to stop feeling so GROSS!!

Worst of all T told me she never worked with a person with sex problems quite like mine. She does sex trauma stuff and did her dissertation on sex functioning but she never treated this problem I am having. She seems confident but what if she is wrong???? Just ewwwww and ewwww and