That is part of it I'm sure. Then is when I knew it was the truth. But I didn't know what all the symptoms were and that I was experiencing almost all of them. I think I just wanted to get better for my son, so I started researching about what was wrong with me.

My mom doesn't really remember hardly anything about being married to my father. She just remember one incident when he shook me when I was a baby. But they divorced when I was only almost two. They were only married for 6 years and they had only met about two months before they got married. But my mother asked me many times when I was about 8 until I finally told someone at age 11-12 about the way he treated me and my sister. She would tell me that her best friend's was raped and she acted the same way I did.

My sister probably would have blamed me as well if they had divorced years later instead of earlier. I'm sorry they blame you, you know it's not your fault.

I have tried self-hypnosis, but have never been able to relax enough. What is EDMR?