((((((((((( Jexa )))))))))))) BIG hugs to you. I also end up with a bad case of the icks after sex abuse talk with T. It is hard to talk to others about something so personal. Most of the stuff abuse survivors tell a T is stuff we would not even tell a sexual partner! It is just like you said - ick and ewwww.

The good part though is that you DID IT! It is out there and now T can deal with it a while for you. You no longer have to carry this all by yourself. You did the right thing. Just try to stay grounded and do something extra special to reward yourself. This has to happen in order for you to heal. It is no different than having an icky festering toe and having to show it to the doctor so they can treat it. More big hugs!