okay i feel that i need to share this with someone because i am down and ashamed and i feel silly, im diagnosed by bipolar, school trauma bullying, and anxiety. i discussed with my therapist my suicidal thoughts i attempted twice and in once i put my life in jeopardy. im always breaking promises that i will not attemt again so my therapist is upset. i dont know whats happening with me. i couldnt utter yesterday in the session except a few words i was almost falling apart. in addition what was nerve wrecking i acknowledged my feelings towards her and how i loved her and how i needed her, i felt silly, i actually could not speak those words i wrote a paper during the session. she said its okay, she said its normal for me to be jeaolus of the other clients and envy her children. but i was too ashamed. she made me feel better though, she also said that i do mean something to her. she said we need to work on this aside my suicide thougts, but yet i dont know why i feel sick about that. i need help i just wanted to share this with someone