Google the words "daughters of narcissists" and you will find a support website right up your alley. Two observations...you answered your own question as to why you attract N's...low self esteem. The other observation was your user name...what happens when you flip over a magnate? You push them together and they stay apart. I bet if you worked really hard on your self esteem, you will have flipped in a good way. It is a work in progress so be patient with your self. And check out that website. I think it will really help.