Finally, finally coming out of a horrible depressive cycle (lasted almost 6 months ut was really bad for 3). Thank goodness for my new pdoc who has a great knowledge of meds. I'm on 6 now but he says it won't be long term, just for a little bit. The confusing thing for me is that when i am feeling better I don't spend nearly as much time on here. I log on every day but it's like my brain is frozen and I can't reply to posts with anything constructive. It's frustrating!! It's not triggering for me, it's just I seem to be so distracted with other things (maybe things I wasn't attentive to when I was feeling crappy). I don't know, but I am here and I do read posts and I am hoping to gain a little clarity in the coming days so I can be a more productive member and more supportive to all of you like you have been supportive to me the past few months. Thanks everyone for your encouragement and well-wishes. I know you "get it" and that's so, so helpful in trying to recover.