I realized why the last few weeks have been he11. I knew it was April, but I remembered why I hate April. Why April is always so hard. I remember thinking at the beginning of April "here we go again". But somehow it kind of slipped my mind as to why it is so bad. Especially as it continued to get worse. It doesn't make it all better. But it makes it seem less crazy. That I know why it is happening. Instead of it happening out of no where and not knowing when it is going to stop. That it is connected to something makes it a little more bearable. It lets me know I'm not totally loosing it. But also how much my attack still effects me. Now I just have to go tell T next week, because I think she is perplexed as to this downturn. I can't wait for the end of April. Sorry for all of you that like April.