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Old Apr 17, 2010, 02:17 PM
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What is concerning about having violent fantasies is the chance of the opponituny to fulfill them. For example, I have PTSD with violent urges. The anger outbursts in PTSD as well as the desire for vengence cause these feelings in me. My concern about these feelings is that I have an 18 month old and I am the only one that ever takes care of him, so I have the oppotunity, and that is scary. It makes me hate my father for having abused me and causing me to have these feelings. I HAD to get help and learn some anger management skills to prevent me from continuing the cycle to the next generation. This has to be a day to day, second to second awareness to not let myself give in. It's not his fault, he doesn't deserve my anger or hostility. I'm angry at my father and other abusers, not my son. Anger management will help you and you should talk to a T about this. When I have feelings like this it makes me feel like a monster and alike to my abuser and it scares me.
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