was terrible. Dr called me in, no Ted; I asked after a while & dr didn't seem to know that Ted was supposed to be there. Ted arrived part way through. Dr had quite a heavy accent so I had to work hard to understand him and correct him on his understanding of me at some points. I tried to make the point that I had read widely but they treated me like I didn't know the basics, eg telling me that there were lots of factors which had fed into my anxiety/depression including upbringing, chemicals in my blood, life stress, impact of the therapy I am now doing, genetic impact. Outcome - there wasn't one. They have a team meeting on Wednesday and they will talk about whether to refer me to a drama therapist (which would be SO difficult for me you can't imagine - I hate any form of drama :noo: ) or to the psychotherapy department - for which there is a waiting list of a year. That was all they could offer. I then asked them whether they could fund more sessions for me with my current counsellor and they said that might be possible for 10 sessions or so. Thank goodness I asked. I had to bring up the DID - that jogged the dr's memory (my GP had mentioned it in his referral letter) but he didn't seem to know much about it or the questions to ask so I was left trying to explain which was really hard for me. Don't know if they are going to let me know what they decide, or if they are going to refer me anywhere, or whether they will attach a community psychiatric nurse to me. Just know it looks like I am on my own. I tried to explain I am just barely hanging on at work and home, but because I have not attempted suicide or got scars from self harm I obviously don't matter. They didn't even seem to be able to say whether I am DID or not - Ted said he thought I had symptoms of it but this might be linked to memories surfacing during my therapy. So that was really helpful.

C