I'm scared. My wife and I have been married for seven years now. Now that I look back I can see my mood swings have erratic at best. This last year has been absolutely horrible. I became cold and distant. There was a point I didn't want anything to do with her. She then cheated on me two months ago. She told me about it. I started going to a psychiatrist but not really intensely yet. He put me on mood stabilizers and something else. I recently found out that they had been in contact for several weeks after the one encounter. They even sent lewd pictures and text messages. I demanded that all contact stopped. Last week she finally told him that she did not want to talk like that anymore, but she still works with him.

The things I've done to her over the years. Also at one or two points it could be deemed marital rape. I don't really blame her. Although I wish she didn't have to work with him. Our entire family is based on her income and benefits. She swears there is no longer any connection, but it seems like over the last two weeks I loose it about once a day or once every other day and we fight and fight and fight. She has asked what she can do to ease my mind. All I do is accuse her of things I can't prove. I'm afraid she'll leave me if I don't find a way to start controlling this, and she wakes up not knowing who I'll be. Heck I don't know who I'll be. Over our whole marriage I've made her cold and distant towards me. Every time she reaches out I yell. Then I cry and apologize. We have a good day and I start yelling. I can accurately say that she has not started one fight in two weeks with fourteen days we fought maybe 10. There has been no evidence of anything in that time too.

Now that we know what is wrong with me she doesn't know if she'll be able to help fix me because she is hurting too.