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Sorry you are having such a rough time right now. I know that alone and scared feeling. Whatever you are feeling is okay, and I validate you feeling that way. Please try to not self harm. I know why we do it and I know that it is something we turn to when things feel so out of control. But in the end, it only causes us more to have to deal with. I know for me, when I would do that I would then feel the guilt of doing that and I was already carrying enough guilt as it was. Also, when it is all said and done you then have to deal with the pain from that and also from the pain of what set it all off to begin with. It puts us in a lose lose situation.

Please talk to someone. Call someone and get some help. Talk to us more here. We care and are here for you. I know it is hard and we will sit quietly and wait for you to reach more when you can. Know that we care and are listening. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps