Have you, your psychiatrist and therapist identified your demons? What role do your demons play in destabilizing your mental health? Will medications help keep you stabilized? What steps need to be taken to slay the demons?

If after two years you are questioning the validity of your concerns, whether you are overemphasizing their significance, why has your treatment team not told you what you experienced is not as serious as you at least at one time believed?

Effective treatment is a cooperative venture. You need to be honest and forthright and follow through with what the treatment team expects of you as a means to getting better. Your treatment team has to be open and forthright with you also. Frankly, my thought is that you have raised similar issues a number of times in previous posts. Maybe it is time to consider a new treatment team to stop the merry-go-round that so frustrates you and see if you can attain the stability you seek with the assistance of someone else.

Good luck.