Jexa,

I am sorry you are feeling so icky about disclosing stuff to your T. I understand your question "where do we go from here" and being upset when T didn't "get" your question. I hate it when Ts don't "get it" but they aren't perfect, so we just have to explain better what we are confused about.

In the session before last I also told my T some "icky" stuff that I didn't want to say. I felt exposed afterward, though part of me had to tell her. I can't believe I told it to her, and haven't brought it up again. I know she didn't forget, though.

I think T's are used to hearing "icky stuff"--details and all, just like a medical dr. is used to seeing people people undressed. My T said she just wants me to feel better. The material doesn't affect them the way it does us. They need to know so they can help. I know that doesn't take away the icky feelings we have about telling a "stranger" our most intimate and private things. But it's for a reason. You're not alone. I hope you feel better soon. And you are definitely NOT disgusting!