My depression is not as bad as it used to be...i have to say. However i know that my life is far from perfect. Which is fine, my life doesnt have to be perfect....i just dont want to be so lonely all the time......and i really cant do anything about it. Being on pc helps but i really have nobody to talk to anywhere else. I cant get rid of this feeling and im trying not to break down yet trying not to pretend everything is ok, when its not. I dont how i could keep going on in this exetremely isolated environment. Its not healthy and that is a fact. Im not supposed to be this cut off from other people but i dont know what to do. I like being a strong person but i know i cant do everything by myself. I really need help. But i feel like its never going to come. I know there is a way out but i just dont see it.