Still here and still sad...
I just want to shut the door and forget the past but I know that's not healthy either.
I'm better than I was but same "can't shake it" feeling is hanging around.

My fish died today (okay so that sounds silly!).. Mark and I bought two gold fish when we moved in to the house.... the first one died the day he told me he didn't love me anymore.. (so I saw it as a sign) the second one died today... It the conection that makes me sad.. I remember laughing when we bought them and especially when I named them (bob and russell).. feeding them together and smiling at each other...
They are happy memories that now just make it all seem harder to cope with the end.