Jexa,

I am glad you were able to find a more calm space and spend some time with your brother.

For me the re-experiencing of the memories is less traumatic than what I experienced as a child so you can only imagine what I/you had to experience.

I am getting stronger, yep...hmmm, wondered if I'd ever state that...but yep it's true. The idiot, criminal (I like that WP called them for who they are) will not win!

I find that the week in-between each appointment I am working out the issues of the appointment before. Sometimes the appointments are intense and sometimes less so. Sometimes they deal with current things that are intense and sometimes with past things. Typically, my therapist allows me to be the guage of what we will work on that week. Sometimes there are two intense sessions in a row and sometimes not.

I am just so glad you were able to self-soothe eventually. Lol, gotta say the ice cream and wine are good but I also had to find some soothing like stuffies, a walk in nature with my doggy, meeting with a friend and doing art work together, spending time with safe family, making an new healthy meal, taking a soothing specially scented bath with either really loud rockin' music or soft peaceful music, depending on the day.

You are doing great Jexa, you are giving yourself the gift of healing!

Best wishes,

Hunny