My nightmare started when I was 17 ...

Had it all figured out when I was a kid ... education, marriage, a couple kids (even a minivan!!!), my own business, then it all ended on September 30th, 1990.

That was the day "I died" ...

I was taken advantage of by my friend's uncle, he performed oral sex on me when I was drunk & stoned, I didn't want it, but he was stronger than me, and I couldn't fight back.

There were numerous attacks after that. I feel that I was preyed upon because I'm not strong, and cannot defend myself.

My sexual abuse destroyed me.

I tried reaching out to family over this, they just threw me away. And the justice system was no help either, guilty offenders get away with their crimes, and the victims are left to fend for themselves.

It has left me lost & confused, and wanting so bad to be loved by that special someone, and never feel hurt and pain anymore.

That's all I want, but I know it will never happen ...